The Final Word

So it went official today.

Last night we’d had a good long chat over Facebook Messenger, and things had seemed a bit better. There were a few moments where things got all upset, but by and large it was calm and accepting. Still sad, but at the very least, resigned to what was happening.

This morning, as agreed before I went to bed, I changed my relationship status on Facebook (it’s sad how this is what makes things “official” or not, nowadays…) and tried to get on with work.

As far as work went… I shouldn’t have bothered. My head just wasn’t in it. I shuffled a few things on some slides, and wrote some emails. I spoke to Amy for a bit – not about this – and generally had a waste of a day. To top it off there were major problems which I couldn’t do anything to fix, exacerbating my feeling of uselessness.

Sarah didn’t take the change of status well. Despite our positive chat the night before, she was very upset today. I’m doing all I can to help her and be there for her, but I just seem to make things worse. Plus it’s not really helping me, either. I really don’t know what to do. She wanted to meet after work, then didn’t, then did. I’m hoping it will help.